Living in a Sad Quote
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eriiarTitle: Living in a Sad Quote
Chapter: Seventeen
Autor:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
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Pairing: Various. Main: Kyuhyun/Eunhyuk (eventually)
Genre: AU!High School, romance, Drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Grammar errors... sorry~~~
Summary: Even when his life was miserable, Hyukjae still tried his best for being a normal High School student. Trying to smile all the time, sound happy and pretend to be ok is always tiring. He managed to get along with his new life... but his past is still following him. Destroying once again all that he loves
Chapter One ||| Chapter Two ||| Chapter Three ||| Chapter Four ||| Chapter Five ||| Chapter Six ||| Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight ||| Chapter Nine ||| Chapter Ten ||| Chapter Eleven ||| Chapter Twelve ||| Chapter Thirteen ||| Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen ||| Chapter Sixteen
"I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn't."
Kyuhyun opened his eyes slowly, getting used to the lights and the white color that was everywhere. “H-Hyuk…” He called weakly.
“Kyuhyun! You’re awake!” Leeteuk exclaimed when he noticed Kyuhyun’s whispers. “Don’t talk, just rest.”
“Hyuk…” Kyuhyun called again half unconscious.
Leeteuk turned and looked at Kangin with a worried expression. “He’s… he’s not here.” Leeteuk said softly.
Kyuhyun closed his eyes and sighed before trying to get up. “Aah!” He exclaimed when a strong pain made his way to his whole body.
“You have to rest Kyuhyun!” Kangin scolded.
“I’m not going to rest until I find him!” Kyuhyun yelled ignoring the sharp pain that crossed his body.
“Heechul and Hankyung are trying to find him.” Leeteuk said while maintaining Kyuhyun in the bed.
“Then I’m supposed to stay here while he is in danger?!” Kyuhyun yelled frustrated.
“I’m sorry Kyuhyun, but if by any chance you were to find him, what would you do? You’re injured and you’re not as strong as you could.” Kibum said sharply, he was staying quiet but he just couldn’t stand it anymore.
“I just can’t let him get hurt anymore!” Kyuhyun said while tears were already flowing down his cheeks. “I’m so stupid I couldn’t realize he was suffering all this time, I’m such an idiot…” Kyuhyun sobbed.
“Neither of us knew Kyuhyun…” Leeteuk said at the edge of tears too.
Kyuhyun frowned in determination. “I will find him.” He said and the tone of his voice sent shivers to all the people in the room.
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“You’re finally awake.” Hyukjae heard a voice when he just moved a little, a strong and sharp pain getting its way to his body; his eyes were tied up as well as his hands, he knew he was lying in the floor and not in the most comfortable position.
“You should just kill me.” Hyukjae said. “Or are you afraid of doing do Alexander?” He said with a firm voice.
“Why would I kill you when I have so many things in mind?” Alexander answered in a muffing tone.
Hyukjae was about to reply when he realized that in fact he was still alive, he should be dead because of the blood he lost and because of his blood.
“If you are wondering about your wound, well, it seems to be it wasn’t that deep and you will be able to walk in some days.” Alexander said.
“Are you saying you treated my wound?” Hyukjae asked curious.
“It wasn’t that difficult; when we were here you weren’t bleeding anymore.” Alexander said as if it wasn’t important.
Hyukjae’s face brightened. “Are you saying I healed by my own?” Hyukjae asked since he just wanted to make sure.
“Yes.” Alexander said getting annoyed. “Everybody does.” He said.
Warm tears started falling down Hyukjae’s cheeks. “I healed by myself…” He murmured to himself, a sincere smile appearing in his lips.
I’m actually getting better.
I will be able to live.
“Why the hell are you crying?!” Alexander panicked. “Are you hurt?!” He asked not knowing what to do.
“I just healed by myself…” Hyukjae repeated happily, the tears not stopping.
"It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection."
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“Are you okay now?” Alexander asked concerned and Hyukjae nodded.
He was already sat in a comfortable couch, his eyes weren’t tied up and he could see the luxurious room in where he was. “Aren’t you supposed to be torturing me?” Hyukjae asked lifting an eyebrow.
“Seems to be my torture tactics differ from others.” Alexander said drinking some wine elegantly.
“So what do you want?” Hyukjae asked sharply. “I must tell you I’m not an easy person to deal with.”
“Me neither.” Alexander said with a smirk in his face. “But I actually kind of like you so I supposed killing you would be a waste.”
“Just tell me what the hell do you want so I can leave this place.” Hyukjae said looking at the other male intently.
“Who told you, you can leave?” Alexander asked frowning. “I told you I was going to torture you, letting you go is not in my plan.”
“So do you want to use me?” Hyukjae asked frowning too. “Can’t you just kill me and that’s all?” He asked lifting an eyebrow.
Alexander laughed. “It will be almost the same so don’t worry.” He said trying hard not to laugh anymore.
Hyukjae frown went deeper. “What do you mean?” He asked narrowing his eyes.
“You will be my executioner.” Alexander said making himself comfortable.
Hyukjae opened his eyes in shock. “W-What?” He asked incredibly.
“You killed Kevin.” Alexander said narrowing his eyes, making a serious face and looking directly at Hyukjae’s eyes, the latter felt scared just because of that. “And I will make you kill as much people as I want just because I know you can’t get free of your guilty feeling.”
“Kevin killed Junsu.” Hyukjae said when he could actually talk. “I don’t think there should be a problem between us.”
“But there is.” Alexander said coldly.
“I won’t do it.” Hyukjae said giving up on that topic; it was hurtful to talk about Junsu; only sad memories would flash in his mind.
“You will.” Alexander said threatening.
“Why would I kill people when I’m a doctor you moron?!” Hyukjae yelled annoyed and frustrated. “I became a doctor because I want people alive!”
“Because your dear friends will die instead of those people.” Alexander said smirking.
Kyuhyun’s face flashed in Hyukjae’s mind, followed by Heechul’s and Hankyung’s; the rest following, their smiling faces that Hyukjae couldn’t even imagine suffering.
“They have security systems all around them; you would never be able to even touch them.” Hyukjae said confidently.
Alexander laughed lightly. “Who do you think own those security systems?” He asked pointing at himself.
Hyukjae opened his eyes widely in shock, he was now getting scared; the frustration of always making his friends and the people he loves in danger was something he seemed to not being able to avoid.
“Fine.” Hyukjae hissed sighing. “Conditions?” He asked coldly.
Alexander smirked. “Don’t worry too much.” He said. “You will be able to live normally, with your beloved friends, until I call you, that’s all.”
Hyukjae frowned and said nothing.
“But there are certain things you should know about this first.” Alexander said sipping his wine once again and breathing deeply before talking again. “First you have to leave no clue when you make your work.” He said and looked at Hyukjae intently. “I know you’re good at it.”
“Fine.” Hyukjae hissed frustrated.
“Second; you will have a cell phone where I can call you and you will answer every time I do.” Alexander continued. “The only one who will have that number will be me.”
“Ok.” Hyukjae said reasoning it out. “What if I’m in surgery?” He asked after a few minutes. “I can’t possibly get out and people would suspect there’s something wrong.”
“Then I will give you instructions, don’t worry, I have all your time calculated.” Alexander said still smirking. “I know you just sleep an hour in a day, which is convenient for me.”
Hyukjae looked away frustrated.
“Three…” Alexander kept going on. “You can’t tell anyone about this.”
“As if would.” Hyukjae hissed frowning in annoyance. “May I leave now then?”
“No.” Alexander answered coldly. “But I allow you to make a phone call for them to know you’re fine.”
“Fine.” Hyukjae said taking his cell phone out of his pocket where it still amusingly was.
“Not now.” Alexander said. “I have to finish talking first.”
“Fine!” Hyukjae yelled not minding who was the one in front of him. “I just remind you that I’m not that weak myself, you have to know you will get it from me any time.”
“But not today.” Alexander said smirking. “Four.” He continued and Hyukjae had to eat his own words. “You won’t hesitate after I command you.”
Hyukjae clenched his fists. “Why does it have to be me?” He asked with angriness in his voice.
Alexander smirked. “Because you’re the best for this, you’re so difficult to track, you’re three persons in one, and those three persons are rich by their own, that means YOU are even richer and powerful.” Alexander counted with his fingers. “And because you know how to kill people fast and efficiently.”
“That’s not something I’m proud of.” Hyukjae said trying to stand up.
“I told you…” Alexander said sighing after watching the painful Hyukjae. “You won’t be able to walk for some days; I will call someone to take you to that hospital.”
“Then why did you shot me idiot?!” Hyukjae burst out.
“You were trying to escape.” Alexander said lifting his shoulders, as if that were enough reason as to shoot someone.
“Then why did you shot Kyuhyun?” Hyukjae asked narrowing his eyes.
“That fucking guy punched me hard!” Alexander yelled annoyed, remembering the pain he was still feeling. “He deserved it!”
“He doesn’t! If by any chance something happens to him I swear I will kill you.” Hyukjae threatened.
“He won’t die.” Alexander said a little disappointed. “He’s doing fine in the hospital.”
Hyukjae just sighed and groaned annoyed and dialed something in his phone.
“Hyuk!” Heechul’s surprised voice could be heard from the other line of the phone.
“Umma…” Hyukjae called.
“Where are you Hyuk?! Are you okay?! Did they do something to you?!” Heechul asked concerned non stopping. “I will kill them all!”
“Don’t worry Umma…” Hyukjae said as calmer as he could sound. “I will be at the hospital in a pair of hours, so wait for me neh?” He asked trying to sound as if nothing happened in reality.
“Hyuk…” Heechul called confused.
“See you later Umma…” Hyukjae closed his phone. “May I leave now?” He asked to Alexander.
“Sure you may!” Alexander smiled mischievously.
“You do know that I will take revenge right?” Hyukjae asked while some big guy went in the room.
“Of course I know.” Alexander said. “Still I’m not afraid.”
“Take care Alexander, I’m not that an innocent boy like I used to when I was with Junsu.” Hyukjae threatened.
“Do you really believe that?” Alexander asked smirking.
“Listen to me Alexander…” Hyukjae said seriously. “Every single drop of blood that comes out of my friends’ bodies, I will make you pay for it.”
“Of course you will. Now leave.” Alexander ordered taking his glass of wine once again in his hands.
Hyukjae groaned when someone arrived and carried him bridal style through the door.
“See you later Hyukjae!” Alexander yelled from inside the room chuckling and Hyukjae just breathed in and out from annoyance.
Hyukjae was fucking mad and he didn’t dare to fight back at Alexander; he would get out of this and he didn’t care about anything anymore. He was going to get revenge just because of the simple fact that the people he loved was in danger. He wouldn’t let something wrong happen again. Ever.
“Fuck you Alexander!” Hyukjae screamed while being carried by a big and expressionless guy.
“The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same.”
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Kyuhyun groaned silently while sliding himself out of the hospital, he had to seduce a nurse for him to get out but still, he had to find Hyukjae.
“Where do you think you’re going?” Kyuhyun heard Heechul’s serious voice.
“I have to find him Hyung.” Kyuhyun said turning around slowly. His wounds were still painful but his determination to find the one he loved was even bigger.
“So where are you going to look for?” Heechul asked lifting an eyebrow.
Kyuhyun froze, he indeed didn’t have any clue of the guy who took away Hyukjae, he had nothing. “I…” He started not knowing how to continue.
“Sulli just woke up.” Heechul announced after a few seconds. “You should go and talk to her.”
“Hyuk needs me Hyung!” Kyuhyun almost yelled, frustrated because of his uselessness; tears already forming in his eyes. “Hyung…” He called desperate. “I don’t want to be a harm to Hyukkie… I want to protect him and make him smile Hyung…”
Heechul looked away, trying hard not to cry because of the other’s feelings. “If you don’t want to be a burden to him you should start recovering yourself so he won’t regret anything when he comes back.” He said sighing. “He will feel guilty of your pain.”
“He has suffered far more…” Kyuhyun mumbled, remembering the awful images in that small notebook. “How could I be so stupid?” He asked to himself, getting mad just when he remembered making Hyukjae cry.
“He called me a while ago.” Heechul said lowly, looking away and restraining his tears from crying. He knew Hyukjae’s parents were killed, he just didn’t know his whole family was as well, he felt like a coward just thinking about that, nobody would ever dare to live after that.
“W-What?!” Kyuhyun asked, his heart getting to beat faster.
“He will be here in a couple of hours; I think he will explain what has happened.” Heechul said in a husky voice. “Go and talk to Sulli. Remember why your are here.” Heechul said and went away, leaving a hurt Kyuhyun behind.
Why do I feel like I’m a coward when it hurts me so much to lose a child?
Did Hyuk go through this?
How many times?
How could he still smile at me after that?
How could he still care about others?
Kyuhyun fell into his knees, misery running through his entire system, tears falling down as rivers; his heart was aching and he didn’t know why. He was in pain when he was thinking about his child, but the pain he felt when he remembered Hyukjae’s tears hurt him the most. He couldn’t stand it, he could die just for see Hyukjae happy again, he could do anything just to make the one he loves the most forget his misery.
“The miserable has no other medicine but hope.”
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“Sulli…” Kyuhyun called softly while entering the hospital room.
He stood in his spot for almost two hours, crying his heart out finally; he went back to his room when a nurse found him and made him change his bandages so everything would be okay.
Sulli didn’t say anything; she just looked blankly at Kyuhyun who was approaching her slowly.
“How do you feel?” Kyuhyun asked softly while sitting down in the chair next to her bed.
Sulli turned around so she wouldn’t face Kyuhyun. “Get out.” She ordered with a shaking voice.
Kyuhyun sighed, he was feeling awful, he just lost his child and the pain was more than huge, he couldn’t imagine Sulli’s pain as well. “Sulli… I’m-“
“Don’t feel bad.” Sulli said flatly and her tone shocked Kyuhyun.
“What?” Kyuhyun asked confused.
Sulli turned to face him with blank eyes. “Don’t feel sorry because of what happened.” She said in such as empty voice that scared Kyuhyun.
“Sulli…” Kyuhyun called softly.
“If you’re feeling pity towards me I ask you to leave me alone.” Sulli said looking at Kyuhyun’s eyes intently.
“I don’t pity you Sulli…” Kyuhyun said sighing. “We have to be strong…” he said softly.
“Don’t.” Sulli said still flatly. “I told already told you, you don’t have to feel bad or sad.”
“How can I don’t feel sad when my child died and my wife is now like this?!” Kyuhyun asked getting that feel of guilt once again in his chest.
“We both know you didn’t love me Kyuhyun.” Sulli said frowning. “And didn’t do I.” She admitted.
That fact didn’t shocked Kyuhyun, they both were clear with their feelings and they agreed on staying together for the child. They both knew they didn’t love each other; Kyuhyun’s heart would always be craving for Hyukjae to be with him.
“Still... Sulli…” Kyuhyun tried to reason out. It was their child after all, and it was sure a shock for both of them.
“Let’s get divorce Kyuhyun.” Sulli said with pleading eyes and Kyuhyun found himself dumbfounded.
Even when he didn’t love her, he still cared about her, and her state right then was making Kyuhyun feel guilty for everything that happened, he knew he was still kind of irresponsible and he could have been the one who made Sulli like that.
“I know you’re mad Sulli…” Kyuhyun said softly, trying hard to hide his surprise. “Let’s talk about this after you recover.” He said standing up.
Sulli said nothing and just looked how Kyuhyun was walking slowly to the door, limping and pressing his bandaged wound. Her eyes started to for tears like rivers. “The kid…” She sobbed and Kyuhyun stopped his tracks.
Kyuhyun turned to see Sulli just to be shocked once again when she was crying desperately. “Sulli… you don’t have to-“
“T-That child wasn’t yours…” Sulli sobbed and Kyuhyun froze.
“W-What?” Kyuhyun asked, his heart beating fast and his legs no longer responding.
Sulli looked at Kyuhyun’s eyes. “I…” She started. “I cheated on you so I could get pregnant…” She admitted while crying hard again.
Kyuhyun felt even worst, he was the one who made Sulli like that, he was the one who made Sulli became like that, just because of him; she was a kind and cute girl before him. And now he sees her crying because of something he was part of. He slowly approached the fragile figure in front of him. He saw how she was breaking down and he felt his heart clenching.
Sulli cried harder when Kyuhyun hugged her warmly. “I’m sorry Sulli…” He said softly. “I’m sorry I made you like this.”
“You know…” Sulli started when she was calmer. “I don’t know why I wanted to get pregnant…” She confessed breaking the hug.
“Because that’s the dream of every woman.” Kyuhyun said softly and whipping Sulli’s tears away.
“You love him right?” Sulli asked seriously.
Kyuhyun sighed and a warm smile was plastered in his face. “You know that already.”
Sulli nodded lightly, a warm and weak smiled appeared in her face. “He used to tell me to take care a lot and not over work…” She said softly.
Kyuhyun froze. “When did he say that?” He asked curious and Sulli turned up to face him and look at him in the eyes.
“Every day, he would call and ask if I was doing fine with the baby, he would also ask me how I felt…” She said softly.
“H-He did?” Kyuhyun asked chocked. “Why?” He frowned lightly.
Sulli’s cheeks were wet once again with tears. “He didn’t call me yesterday…” She said lowly. “He must be feeling so guilty…” She said.
“Sulli…” Kyuhyun called. “Why is it I don’t know what’s going on with the person I love?” He asked and tears could be seen in his eyes.
Sulli smiled warmly. “Because you’re always thinking on the future, not in the present…” Sulli said softly.
Kyuhyun lowered his head and tears were falling down his cheeks, guilt and misery was now invading his heart and body. He felt so wrong when he was in such state, not being able to help the one he loved and just hurting him.
Sulli hugged Kyuhyun for comfort; it was as if they silently chose to be friends instead of husband and wife. “Promise me you will make him happy Kyuhyun…” She whispered.
Kyuhyun nodded while hugging her back. “Thanks Sulli.” He said honestly.
“Thank you Kyuhyun…” Sulli answered smiling warmly.
It was then when they finally let their harts get rid of that weight that was making them feel unhappy. They finally would be honest, their hearts were at ease at last.
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They seem to be fine with each other once again. Hyukjae’s mind said while watching a warm scene in front of him.
He was outside the room, he wanted to check Kyuhyun and Sulli up, even ignoring his own pain, he didn’t mind as long as they were fine. The glass walls just made the scene to look more magical, he knew he couldn’t win a battle we hoped he could start.
We should just give up. His mind said as the tears were falling down.
Kyuhyun and Sulli seemed so close and so comfortable with each other, his heart was all in pieces by now and his body seemed to not being able to carry on.
Hyukjae lowered his head and turned around. “Take me out.” He ordered to the guy who carried him around.
The guy complied and took Hyukjae in his arms; that was his job until the latter could walk on normally.
“Where do you want to go?” Alexander’s driver asked when Hyukjae was already in the car.
“I’ll go home…” Hyukjae muttered, looking at the window and finally making his heart and head to agree in an important decision.
To take his heart away and deal with his own condition, not letting his heart to interrupt anymore.
I can’t give him a family. Hyukjae’s tears fell down slowly.
I can’t give him happiness.
I shouldn’t be selfish.
“There is only one cause of unhappiness: the false beliefs you have in your head, beliefs so widespread, so commonly held, that it never occurs to you to question them.”
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“Hello?” Kyuhyun answered his phone when an unknown number called him.
“Hey Kyuhyun…” a voice sounded a bit low and that made Kyuhyun’s heart beat as fast as if it would run away from his chest.
“HYUK! WHERE ARE YOU?! ARE YOU OK?! ARE THOSE GUYS WITH YOU?!” Kyuhyun asked panicked.
“I’m fine…” Hyukjae answered slowly and that two words made Kyuhyun felt like the biggest weight out of his body. “I tried calling Sungmin hyung but it seems to be he has his phone off… Just like everyone else…” Hyukjae said with a weak tone of voice.
“Are you really ok?” Kyuhyun asked softly and his heart hurt when Hyukjae couldn’t even answer to that simple question.
“I am…” Hyukjae answered after a few seconds. His voice sounded weak and husky, Kyuhyun knew it wasn’t true.
“Hyukkie…” Kyuhyun called with a strong feeling of misery within him.
“Can you tell the others I’m fine?” Hyukjae asked.
“Hmm...mmm…” Kyuhyun humbled as an answer.
“Thanks…” Hyukjae said simply. “I have to go… Please remember to tell them.” He pointed out and waited for a few seconds for Kyuhyun to answer.
The line went silent, neither Kyuhyun nor Hyukjae would dare to speak or even hang up. “Hyuk…” Kyuhyun called again softly.
“Yes?” Hyukjae answered, suddenly feeling his heart beat fast in anticipation.
“I love you.” Kyuhyun said after a sigh. It felt so good and so right to say that to Hyukjae, he swore he could say it all the time.
Hyukjae froze, a sincere smile was present in his face and a happiness tear went down his cheek.
Maybe I won’t be able to give up after all. Hyukjae’s mind said while the latter smiled warmly.
Maybe I should be selfish just once more…
Maybe I can try…
“I love you too Kyu…” Hyukjae finally answered, his heart felt happiness running through it, a huge smile in his face and hopes that were raised in his mind just by three mere words.
Kyuhyun felt like the happiest guy on earth, after seconds of a painful agony when Hyukjae didn’t say anything, he could finally hear those words that made him stronger and being able to keep on. He could finally breathe again and the only thing he wished right in that moment was to be next to the one he loved.
After another seconds of silence, Hyukjae decided to hung up, he didn’t know what he would say to Kyuhyun either, his heart was beating fast and his mind could help but imagine Kyuhyun’s face.
“This is for you sir.” Alexander’s driver handed Hyukjae a small box.
Hyukjae frowned. “What is it?” He asked but taking the box.
The driver didn’t answered and Hyukjae’s frown went deeper when he saw what it was. The new phone in his hand rang revealing an incoming call from Alexander.
“What?!” Hyukjae answered angry, he wasn’t in the mood for Alexander to call.
“Why so mad?” Alexander asked with a sarcastic tone.
“What do you want? I won’t be able to kill anyone while I’m like this you know?” Hyukjae said and he didn’t put effort on making his voice sound less mad.
Alexander sighed. “I just wanted to know you were fine…” He said with an almost soft voice.
“I’m fine so leave me alone until I have something to do…” Hyukjae said and was about to hung up when he heard Alexander in the other line.
“Wait!” He exclaimed panicked.
“What?!” Hyukjae asked annoyed.
“Er…” Alexander murmured. “I was wondering if you could come to my house tomorrow…” He said and Hyukjae frowned.
“I can’t.” Hyukjae said flatly.
“Why?!” Alexander asked childish and Hyukjae swore he would slap the guy the next time he sees him.
“You fucking shot me and you expect me to visit you?! YOU’RE SO CRAZY ALEXANDER!” Hyukjae busted out.
“Yah!” Alexander exclaimed with faking hurt. “You work for me! Don’t talk to me like that!”
“I will do whatever I want!” Hyukjae yelled to the phone. “I just agreed on being your executioner not your slave!”
“Fine!” Alexander hissed. “When are you going to recover?”
Hyukjae touched his forehead. “I think I will collapse any time soon so I want to go home…” He said serious. “It’s almost impossible for a human being to do what I’m doing after he got shot.”
“Then how many days?” Alexander asked.
“If I’m lucky, I will be able to walk slowly in a month.” Hyukjae said biting his lower lip.
“And you will be able to do what I want you to?” Alexander asked curious.
Hyukjae sighed. “You and I know that is actually really easy to kill someone.” He said looking pass the car window. “So yes…”
“Great!” Alexander exclaimed. “So how are you?” He asked as if it were the most normal thing to ask in that situation.
“Why are you interested in how am I?” Hyukjae asked with annoyance in his voice.
“Just because…” Alexander said and Hyukjae frowned.
“I have a high fever, my blood pressure is low, I get dizzy with every movement I make, and I might faint any time soon. Happy now?” Hyukjae asked sarcastically.
“Not really…” Alexander said. “I’ll send you your bodyguards.”
“I don’t need them.” Hyukjae said flatly.
“I don’t care.” Alexander said.
Hyukjae annoyance grew. “Just leave me alone for a month!” He demanded.
“I don’t think so.” Alexander said and Hyukjae could swear he was smirking.
“Aish!” Hyukjae exclaimed and closed the phone, turning it off.
He felt dizzy, the pain was slowly making his way to his body and he knew he would no longer stand being awake.
“We’re here.” The driver announced.
Hyukjae looked out before his heart started beating fiercely; the house was exactly as he remembered it to be, except that the feeling was different for him; memories and horrible images passed through his mind, everything started there, his living hell started just in that place.
I’m home.
“The distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion.”
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“What?!” Kyuhyun yelled to the nurse. “Where did he go?!” He asked frustrated once again.
“He just gave us some orders, he said he had to go home and rest.” The nurse answered shyly.
“But he’s injured! How could you let him go that way?!” Kyuhyun snapped. He was damn mad because of the situation, and not being able to see Hyukjae was even worst.
“He said he would treat himself at home.” The nursed excused herself. “He’s an excellent doctor and he always treats himself.” The nurse said as in her defense.
“What?” Kyuhyun frowned lightly. “Does he get injured often?”
The nurse sighed. “Not really…” She said while checking on Kyuhyun’s wound. “You must be careful sir, the wounds are way too fresh and they’re opening again, the pain is not there as much as it could be, but it has been just hours since you got shot and I’m afraid you will get some major consequences.” The nurse said concerned.
And it was true, Kyuhyun was shot just hours ago and it was supposed for him to stay in the bed until he recovers, he was supposed to sleep almost three days in a raw, the fact that he’s still super strong shouldn’t be n excuse to not take care of himself.
“Then why does he need to treat himself?” Kyuhyun asked ignoring the nurse.
The nurse sighed again. “Doctor Kim will kill me for sure…” She mumbled.
“Why?” Kyuhyun asked frowning.
The nurse turned to see Kyuhyun at the face. “He told me and all the people in here to take special care of you so your wounds would heal fast, but you’re not cooperating sir.” She said almost in a plea.
“He said so?” Kyuhyun asked opening his eyes wide and happiness running through his system.
“I’m impressed you actually are awake since people who get shot usually sleep for three or four days…” The nursed mumbled frowning in concentration. “And you have fainted like almost five times in the time being, don’t overwork your body.”
“Anyways…” Kyuhyun said snapping back to his own topic. “Is he sick?” He asked directly and he saw the nurse getting nervous.
The nurse gulped. “That’s not something I should talk about.” She said looking away from Kyuhyun’s death glare.
Kyuhyun had no other choice; he sighed. “If you don’t tell me I will make you lose your job.” He threatened serious.
The nurse smiled and Kyuhyun frowned. “Doctor Kim said you would say something like that.” She said. “He told us not to worry since he wouldn’t let anything wrong happen.”
He knows us too well. Kyuhyun’s mind made fun of him.
He’s determined on not letting me know what’s wrong. Kyuhyun frowned
Then I must suppose it’s something really bad.
“Call him and let me talk to him.” Kyuhyun ordered frowning.
“I’m sorry.” The nurse said apologetic. “But if you would like to know more about his health, then you should try calling his doctor in France.” She said and went out, not knowing if regretting telling that to Kyuhyun.
“Minho!” Kyuhyun yelled in realization; only to whine when he felt the sharp pain in his body.
Kyuhyun took out his cell phone and when he was about to get Minho’s number he could no longer see the numbers, his sight was blurry and his hands didn’t seem to obey his orders. He saw the blurry image of the nurse coming in. “What’s wrong?” Kyuhyun asked trying to focus his sight and taking both of his hands to his head as if it would get better that way.
“Doctor Kim instructed me to keep you resting.” The nurse said while preparing the hospital bed.
“You drugged me?!” Kyuhyun yelled annoyed and his world seemed to not stop moving.
“I just follow orders.” The nurse said and Kyuhyun saw then a big guy coming in and carrying him bridal style carefully.
Kyuhyun felt weak and he couldn’t even struggle against the huge guy, he just didn’t protest and he couldn’t say anything when he was placed in the bed. The nurse prepared him with serum and changed his bandages once again since the wound bleed again. “I will make sure you won’t do this again…” Kyuhyun said weakly and with his eyes closed already.
“Then someone else will do it anyway.” The nurse said checking if everything was ready. “Sweet dreams.” She said and smiled.
Even when Kyuhyun didn’t want to, he was forced by his own body to sleep deeply. And even when he was against sleeping, he couldn’t help but smile weakly remembering Hyukjae’s words.
I love you too Kyu.
He then went into a deep sleep, he slept with Hyukjae’s smile in his face and he felt happy just because of that.
I love you Hyukkie.
“If we open a quarrel between the past and the present, we shall find that we have lost the future.”
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A/N: Updateeeee~~~~
I know I’m super late and I’m becoming rather lazy~~
But college is kinda hard and doesn’t allow me to write as much as I wish to…
*pouts*
Sooo~~~
Keke
I know most of you hated me last chapter~~
(I know it because everybody threatened me with FLYING KICKS! (Noe?), and so on…
So don’t worry~~~ I was just making it a little harder…
I actually kept on going with my initial plan in this story~~
I really hope you like it so far!
5,532 words this time… ^^’
Please comment a lot!
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Chapter: Seventeen
Autor:
eriiar Pairing: Various. Main: Kyuhyun/Eunhyuk (eventually)
Genre: AU!High School, romance, Drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Grammar errors... sorry~~~
Summary: Even when his life was miserable, Hyukjae still tried his best for being a normal High School student. Trying to smile all the time, sound happy and pretend to be ok is always tiring. He managed to get along with his new life... but his past is still following him. Destroying once again all that he loves
Chapter One ||| Chapter Two ||| Chapter Three ||| Chapter Four ||| Chapter Five ||| Chapter Six ||| Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight ||| Chapter Nine ||| Chapter Ten ||| Chapter Eleven ||| Chapter Twelve ||| Chapter Thirteen ||| Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen ||| Chapter Sixteen
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"I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn't."
Kyuhyun opened his eyes slowly, getting used to the lights and the white color that was everywhere. “H-Hyuk…” He called weakly.
“Kyuhyun! You’re awake!” Leeteuk exclaimed when he noticed Kyuhyun’s whispers. “Don’t talk, just rest.”
“Hyuk…” Kyuhyun called again half unconscious.
Leeteuk turned and looked at Kangin with a worried expression. “He’s… he’s not here.” Leeteuk said softly.
Kyuhyun closed his eyes and sighed before trying to get up. “Aah!” He exclaimed when a strong pain made his way to his whole body.
“You have to rest Kyuhyun!” Kangin scolded.
“I’m not going to rest until I find him!” Kyuhyun yelled ignoring the sharp pain that crossed his body.
“Heechul and Hankyung are trying to find him.” Leeteuk said while maintaining Kyuhyun in the bed.
“Then I’m supposed to stay here while he is in danger?!” Kyuhyun yelled frustrated.
“I’m sorry Kyuhyun, but if by any chance you were to find him, what would you do? You’re injured and you’re not as strong as you could.” Kibum said sharply, he was staying quiet but he just couldn’t stand it anymore.
“I just can’t let him get hurt anymore!” Kyuhyun said while tears were already flowing down his cheeks. “I’m so stupid I couldn’t realize he was suffering all this time, I’m such an idiot…” Kyuhyun sobbed.
“Neither of us knew Kyuhyun…” Leeteuk said at the edge of tears too.
Kyuhyun frowned in determination. “I will find him.” He said and the tone of his voice sent shivers to all the people in the room.
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“You’re finally awake.” Hyukjae heard a voice when he just moved a little, a strong and sharp pain getting its way to his body; his eyes were tied up as well as his hands, he knew he was lying in the floor and not in the most comfortable position.
“You should just kill me.” Hyukjae said. “Or are you afraid of doing do Alexander?” He said with a firm voice.
“Why would I kill you when I have so many things in mind?” Alexander answered in a muffing tone.
Hyukjae was about to reply when he realized that in fact he was still alive, he should be dead because of the blood he lost and because of his blood.
“If you are wondering about your wound, well, it seems to be it wasn’t that deep and you will be able to walk in some days.” Alexander said.
“Are you saying you treated my wound?” Hyukjae asked curious.
“It wasn’t that difficult; when we were here you weren’t bleeding anymore.” Alexander said as if it wasn’t important.
Hyukjae’s face brightened. “Are you saying I healed by my own?” Hyukjae asked since he just wanted to make sure.
“Yes.” Alexander said getting annoyed. “Everybody does.” He said.
Warm tears started falling down Hyukjae’s cheeks. “I healed by myself…” He murmured to himself, a sincere smile appearing in his lips.
I’m actually getting better.
I will be able to live.
“Why the hell are you crying?!” Alexander panicked. “Are you hurt?!” He asked not knowing what to do.
“I just healed by myself…” Hyukjae repeated happily, the tears not stopping.
"It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection."
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“Are you okay now?” Alexander asked concerned and Hyukjae nodded.
He was already sat in a comfortable couch, his eyes weren’t tied up and he could see the luxurious room in where he was. “Aren’t you supposed to be torturing me?” Hyukjae asked lifting an eyebrow.
“Seems to be my torture tactics differ from others.” Alexander said drinking some wine elegantly.
“So what do you want?” Hyukjae asked sharply. “I must tell you I’m not an easy person to deal with.”
“Me neither.” Alexander said with a smirk in his face. “But I actually kind of like you so I supposed killing you would be a waste.”
“Just tell me what the hell do you want so I can leave this place.” Hyukjae said looking at the other male intently.
“Who told you, you can leave?” Alexander asked frowning. “I told you I was going to torture you, letting you go is not in my plan.”
“So do you want to use me?” Hyukjae asked frowning too. “Can’t you just kill me and that’s all?” He asked lifting an eyebrow.
Alexander laughed. “It will be almost the same so don’t worry.” He said trying hard not to laugh anymore.
Hyukjae frown went deeper. “What do you mean?” He asked narrowing his eyes.
“You will be my executioner.” Alexander said making himself comfortable.
Hyukjae opened his eyes in shock. “W-What?” He asked incredibly.
“You killed Kevin.” Alexander said narrowing his eyes, making a serious face and looking directly at Hyukjae’s eyes, the latter felt scared just because of that. “And I will make you kill as much people as I want just because I know you can’t get free of your guilty feeling.”
“Kevin killed Junsu.” Hyukjae said when he could actually talk. “I don’t think there should be a problem between us.”
“But there is.” Alexander said coldly.
“I won’t do it.” Hyukjae said giving up on that topic; it was hurtful to talk about Junsu; only sad memories would flash in his mind.
“You will.” Alexander said threatening.
“Why would I kill people when I’m a doctor you moron?!” Hyukjae yelled annoyed and frustrated. “I became a doctor because I want people alive!”
“Because your dear friends will die instead of those people.” Alexander said smirking.
Kyuhyun’s face flashed in Hyukjae’s mind, followed by Heechul’s and Hankyung’s; the rest following, their smiling faces that Hyukjae couldn’t even imagine suffering.
“They have security systems all around them; you would never be able to even touch them.” Hyukjae said confidently.
Alexander laughed lightly. “Who do you think own those security systems?” He asked pointing at himself.
Hyukjae opened his eyes widely in shock, he was now getting scared; the frustration of always making his friends and the people he loves in danger was something he seemed to not being able to avoid.
“Fine.” Hyukjae hissed sighing. “Conditions?” He asked coldly.
Alexander smirked. “Don’t worry too much.” He said. “You will be able to live normally, with your beloved friends, until I call you, that’s all.”
Hyukjae frowned and said nothing.
“But there are certain things you should know about this first.” Alexander said sipping his wine once again and breathing deeply before talking again. “First you have to leave no clue when you make your work.” He said and looked at Hyukjae intently. “I know you’re good at it.”
“Fine.” Hyukjae hissed frustrated.
“Second; you will have a cell phone where I can call you and you will answer every time I do.” Alexander continued. “The only one who will have that number will be me.”
“Ok.” Hyukjae said reasoning it out. “What if I’m in surgery?” He asked after a few minutes. “I can’t possibly get out and people would suspect there’s something wrong.”
“Then I will give you instructions, don’t worry, I have all your time calculated.” Alexander said still smirking. “I know you just sleep an hour in a day, which is convenient for me.”
Hyukjae looked away frustrated.
“Three…” Alexander kept going on. “You can’t tell anyone about this.”
“As if would.” Hyukjae hissed frowning in annoyance. “May I leave now then?”
“No.” Alexander answered coldly. “But I allow you to make a phone call for them to know you’re fine.”
“Fine.” Hyukjae said taking his cell phone out of his pocket where it still amusingly was.
“Not now.” Alexander said. “I have to finish talking first.”
“Fine!” Hyukjae yelled not minding who was the one in front of him. “I just remind you that I’m not that weak myself, you have to know you will get it from me any time.”
“But not today.” Alexander said smirking. “Four.” He continued and Hyukjae had to eat his own words. “You won’t hesitate after I command you.”
Hyukjae clenched his fists. “Why does it have to be me?” He asked with angriness in his voice.
Alexander smirked. “Because you’re the best for this, you’re so difficult to track, you’re three persons in one, and those three persons are rich by their own, that means YOU are even richer and powerful.” Alexander counted with his fingers. “And because you know how to kill people fast and efficiently.”
“That’s not something I’m proud of.” Hyukjae said trying to stand up.
“I told you…” Alexander said sighing after watching the painful Hyukjae. “You won’t be able to walk for some days; I will call someone to take you to that hospital.”
“Then why did you shot me idiot?!” Hyukjae burst out.
“You were trying to escape.” Alexander said lifting his shoulders, as if that were enough reason as to shoot someone.
“Then why did you shot Kyuhyun?” Hyukjae asked narrowing his eyes.
“That fucking guy punched me hard!” Alexander yelled annoyed, remembering the pain he was still feeling. “He deserved it!”
“He doesn’t! If by any chance something happens to him I swear I will kill you.” Hyukjae threatened.
“He won’t die.” Alexander said a little disappointed. “He’s doing fine in the hospital.”
Hyukjae just sighed and groaned annoyed and dialed something in his phone.
“Hyuk!” Heechul’s surprised voice could be heard from the other line of the phone.
“Umma…” Hyukjae called.
“Where are you Hyuk?! Are you okay?! Did they do something to you?!” Heechul asked concerned non stopping. “I will kill them all!”
“Don’t worry Umma…” Hyukjae said as calmer as he could sound. “I will be at the hospital in a pair of hours, so wait for me neh?” He asked trying to sound as if nothing happened in reality.
“Hyuk…” Heechul called confused.
“See you later Umma…” Hyukjae closed his phone. “May I leave now?” He asked to Alexander.
“Sure you may!” Alexander smiled mischievously.
“You do know that I will take revenge right?” Hyukjae asked while some big guy went in the room.
“Of course I know.” Alexander said. “Still I’m not afraid.”
“Take care Alexander, I’m not that an innocent boy like I used to when I was with Junsu.” Hyukjae threatened.
“Do you really believe that?” Alexander asked smirking.
“Listen to me Alexander…” Hyukjae said seriously. “Every single drop of blood that comes out of my friends’ bodies, I will make you pay for it.”
“Of course you will. Now leave.” Alexander ordered taking his glass of wine once again in his hands.
Hyukjae groaned when someone arrived and carried him bridal style through the door.
“See you later Hyukjae!” Alexander yelled from inside the room chuckling and Hyukjae just breathed in and out from annoyance.
Hyukjae was fucking mad and he didn’t dare to fight back at Alexander; he would get out of this and he didn’t care about anything anymore. He was going to get revenge just because of the simple fact that the people he loved was in danger. He wouldn’t let something wrong happen again. Ever.
“Fuck you Alexander!” Hyukjae screamed while being carried by a big and expressionless guy.
“The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same.”
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Kyuhyun groaned silently while sliding himself out of the hospital, he had to seduce a nurse for him to get out but still, he had to find Hyukjae.
“Where do you think you’re going?” Kyuhyun heard Heechul’s serious voice.
“I have to find him Hyung.” Kyuhyun said turning around slowly. His wounds were still painful but his determination to find the one he loved was even bigger.
“So where are you going to look for?” Heechul asked lifting an eyebrow.
Kyuhyun froze, he indeed didn’t have any clue of the guy who took away Hyukjae, he had nothing. “I…” He started not knowing how to continue.
“Sulli just woke up.” Heechul announced after a few seconds. “You should go and talk to her.”
“Hyuk needs me Hyung!” Kyuhyun almost yelled, frustrated because of his uselessness; tears already forming in his eyes. “Hyung…” He called desperate. “I don’t want to be a harm to Hyukkie… I want to protect him and make him smile Hyung…”
Heechul looked away, trying hard not to cry because of the other’s feelings. “If you don’t want to be a burden to him you should start recovering yourself so he won’t regret anything when he comes back.” He said sighing. “He will feel guilty of your pain.”
“He has suffered far more…” Kyuhyun mumbled, remembering the awful images in that small notebook. “How could I be so stupid?” He asked to himself, getting mad just when he remembered making Hyukjae cry.
“He called me a while ago.” Heechul said lowly, looking away and restraining his tears from crying. He knew Hyukjae’s parents were killed, he just didn’t know his whole family was as well, he felt like a coward just thinking about that, nobody would ever dare to live after that.
“W-What?!” Kyuhyun asked, his heart getting to beat faster.
“He will be here in a couple of hours; I think he will explain what has happened.” Heechul said in a husky voice. “Go and talk to Sulli. Remember why your are here.” Heechul said and went away, leaving a hurt Kyuhyun behind.
Why do I feel like I’m a coward when it hurts me so much to lose a child?
Did Hyuk go through this?
How many times?
How could he still smile at me after that?
How could he still care about others?
Kyuhyun fell into his knees, misery running through his entire system, tears falling down as rivers; his heart was aching and he didn’t know why. He was in pain when he was thinking about his child, but the pain he felt when he remembered Hyukjae’s tears hurt him the most. He couldn’t stand it, he could die just for see Hyukjae happy again, he could do anything just to make the one he loves the most forget his misery.
“The miserable has no other medicine but hope.”
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“Sulli…” Kyuhyun called softly while entering the hospital room.
He stood in his spot for almost two hours, crying his heart out finally; he went back to his room when a nurse found him and made him change his bandages so everything would be okay.
Sulli didn’t say anything; she just looked blankly at Kyuhyun who was approaching her slowly.
“How do you feel?” Kyuhyun asked softly while sitting down in the chair next to her bed.
Sulli turned around so she wouldn’t face Kyuhyun. “Get out.” She ordered with a shaking voice.
Kyuhyun sighed, he was feeling awful, he just lost his child and the pain was more than huge, he couldn’t imagine Sulli’s pain as well. “Sulli… I’m-“
“Don’t feel bad.” Sulli said flatly and her tone shocked Kyuhyun.
“What?” Kyuhyun asked confused.
Sulli turned to face him with blank eyes. “Don’t feel sorry because of what happened.” She said in such as empty voice that scared Kyuhyun.
“Sulli…” Kyuhyun called softly.
“If you’re feeling pity towards me I ask you to leave me alone.” Sulli said looking at Kyuhyun’s eyes intently.
“I don’t pity you Sulli…” Kyuhyun said sighing. “We have to be strong…” he said softly.
“Don’t.” Sulli said still flatly. “I told already told you, you don’t have to feel bad or sad.”
“How can I don’t feel sad when my child died and my wife is now like this?!” Kyuhyun asked getting that feel of guilt once again in his chest.
“We both know you didn’t love me Kyuhyun.” Sulli said frowning. “And didn’t do I.” She admitted.
That fact didn’t shocked Kyuhyun, they both were clear with their feelings and they agreed on staying together for the child. They both knew they didn’t love each other; Kyuhyun’s heart would always be craving for Hyukjae to be with him.
“Still... Sulli…” Kyuhyun tried to reason out. It was their child after all, and it was sure a shock for both of them.
“Let’s get divorce Kyuhyun.” Sulli said with pleading eyes and Kyuhyun found himself dumbfounded.
Even when he didn’t love her, he still cared about her, and her state right then was making Kyuhyun feel guilty for everything that happened, he knew he was still kind of irresponsible and he could have been the one who made Sulli like that.
“I know you’re mad Sulli…” Kyuhyun said softly, trying hard to hide his surprise. “Let’s talk about this after you recover.” He said standing up.
Sulli said nothing and just looked how Kyuhyun was walking slowly to the door, limping and pressing his bandaged wound. Her eyes started to for tears like rivers. “The kid…” She sobbed and Kyuhyun stopped his tracks.
Kyuhyun turned to see Sulli just to be shocked once again when she was crying desperately. “Sulli… you don’t have to-“
“T-That child wasn’t yours…” Sulli sobbed and Kyuhyun froze.
“W-What?” Kyuhyun asked, his heart beating fast and his legs no longer responding.
Sulli looked at Kyuhyun’s eyes. “I…” She started. “I cheated on you so I could get pregnant…” She admitted while crying hard again.
Kyuhyun felt even worst, he was the one who made Sulli like that, he was the one who made Sulli became like that, just because of him; she was a kind and cute girl before him. And now he sees her crying because of something he was part of. He slowly approached the fragile figure in front of him. He saw how she was breaking down and he felt his heart clenching.
Sulli cried harder when Kyuhyun hugged her warmly. “I’m sorry Sulli…” He said softly. “I’m sorry I made you like this.”
“You know…” Sulli started when she was calmer. “I don’t know why I wanted to get pregnant…” She confessed breaking the hug.
“Because that’s the dream of every woman.” Kyuhyun said softly and whipping Sulli’s tears away.
“You love him right?” Sulli asked seriously.
Kyuhyun sighed and a warm smile was plastered in his face. “You know that already.”
Sulli nodded lightly, a warm and weak smiled appeared in her face. “He used to tell me to take care a lot and not over work…” She said softly.
Kyuhyun froze. “When did he say that?” He asked curious and Sulli turned up to face him and look at him in the eyes.
“Every day, he would call and ask if I was doing fine with the baby, he would also ask me how I felt…” She said softly.
“H-He did?” Kyuhyun asked chocked. “Why?” He frowned lightly.
Sulli’s cheeks were wet once again with tears. “He didn’t call me yesterday…” She said lowly. “He must be feeling so guilty…” She said.
“Sulli…” Kyuhyun called. “Why is it I don’t know what’s going on with the person I love?” He asked and tears could be seen in his eyes.
Sulli smiled warmly. “Because you’re always thinking on the future, not in the present…” Sulli said softly.
Kyuhyun lowered his head and tears were falling down his cheeks, guilt and misery was now invading his heart and body. He felt so wrong when he was in such state, not being able to help the one he loved and just hurting him.
Sulli hugged Kyuhyun for comfort; it was as if they silently chose to be friends instead of husband and wife. “Promise me you will make him happy Kyuhyun…” She whispered.
Kyuhyun nodded while hugging her back. “Thanks Sulli.” He said honestly.
“Thank you Kyuhyun…” Sulli answered smiling warmly.
It was then when they finally let their harts get rid of that weight that was making them feel unhappy. They finally would be honest, their hearts were at ease at last.
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They seem to be fine with each other once again. Hyukjae’s mind said while watching a warm scene in front of him.
He was outside the room, he wanted to check Kyuhyun and Sulli up, even ignoring his own pain, he didn’t mind as long as they were fine. The glass walls just made the scene to look more magical, he knew he couldn’t win a battle we hoped he could start.
We should just give up. His mind said as the tears were falling down.
Kyuhyun and Sulli seemed so close and so comfortable with each other, his heart was all in pieces by now and his body seemed to not being able to carry on.
Hyukjae lowered his head and turned around. “Take me out.” He ordered to the guy who carried him around.
The guy complied and took Hyukjae in his arms; that was his job until the latter could walk on normally.
“Where do you want to go?” Alexander’s driver asked when Hyukjae was already in the car.
“I’ll go home…” Hyukjae muttered, looking at the window and finally making his heart and head to agree in an important decision.
To take his heart away and deal with his own condition, not letting his heart to interrupt anymore.
I can’t give him a family. Hyukjae’s tears fell down slowly.
I can’t give him happiness.
I shouldn’t be selfish.
“There is only one cause of unhappiness: the false beliefs you have in your head, beliefs so widespread, so commonly held, that it never occurs to you to question them.”
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“Hello?” Kyuhyun answered his phone when an unknown number called him.
“Hey Kyuhyun…” a voice sounded a bit low and that made Kyuhyun’s heart beat as fast as if it would run away from his chest.
“HYUK! WHERE ARE YOU?! ARE YOU OK?! ARE THOSE GUYS WITH YOU?!” Kyuhyun asked panicked.
“I’m fine…” Hyukjae answered slowly and that two words made Kyuhyun felt like the biggest weight out of his body. “I tried calling Sungmin hyung but it seems to be he has his phone off… Just like everyone else…” Hyukjae said with a weak tone of voice.
“Are you really ok?” Kyuhyun asked softly and his heart hurt when Hyukjae couldn’t even answer to that simple question.
“I am…” Hyukjae answered after a few seconds. His voice sounded weak and husky, Kyuhyun knew it wasn’t true.
“Hyukkie…” Kyuhyun called with a strong feeling of misery within him.
“Can you tell the others I’m fine?” Hyukjae asked.
“Hmm...mmm…” Kyuhyun humbled as an answer.
“Thanks…” Hyukjae said simply. “I have to go… Please remember to tell them.” He pointed out and waited for a few seconds for Kyuhyun to answer.
The line went silent, neither Kyuhyun nor Hyukjae would dare to speak or even hang up. “Hyuk…” Kyuhyun called again softly.
“Yes?” Hyukjae answered, suddenly feeling his heart beat fast in anticipation.
“I love you.” Kyuhyun said after a sigh. It felt so good and so right to say that to Hyukjae, he swore he could say it all the time.
Hyukjae froze, a sincere smile was present in his face and a happiness tear went down his cheek.
Maybe I won’t be able to give up after all. Hyukjae’s mind said while the latter smiled warmly.
Maybe I should be selfish just once more…
Maybe I can try…
“I love you too Kyu…” Hyukjae finally answered, his heart felt happiness running through it, a huge smile in his face and hopes that were raised in his mind just by three mere words.
Kyuhyun felt like the happiest guy on earth, after seconds of a painful agony when Hyukjae didn’t say anything, he could finally hear those words that made him stronger and being able to keep on. He could finally breathe again and the only thing he wished right in that moment was to be next to the one he loved.
After another seconds of silence, Hyukjae decided to hung up, he didn’t know what he would say to Kyuhyun either, his heart was beating fast and his mind could help but imagine Kyuhyun’s face.
“This is for you sir.” Alexander’s driver handed Hyukjae a small box.
Hyukjae frowned. “What is it?” He asked but taking the box.
The driver didn’t answered and Hyukjae’s frown went deeper when he saw what it was. The new phone in his hand rang revealing an incoming call from Alexander.
“What?!” Hyukjae answered angry, he wasn’t in the mood for Alexander to call.
“Why so mad?” Alexander asked with a sarcastic tone.
“What do you want? I won’t be able to kill anyone while I’m like this you know?” Hyukjae said and he didn’t put effort on making his voice sound less mad.
Alexander sighed. “I just wanted to know you were fine…” He said with an almost soft voice.
“I’m fine so leave me alone until I have something to do…” Hyukjae said and was about to hung up when he heard Alexander in the other line.
“Wait!” He exclaimed panicked.
“What?!” Hyukjae asked annoyed.
“Er…” Alexander murmured. “I was wondering if you could come to my house tomorrow…” He said and Hyukjae frowned.
“I can’t.” Hyukjae said flatly.
“Why?!” Alexander asked childish and Hyukjae swore he would slap the guy the next time he sees him.
“You fucking shot me and you expect me to visit you?! YOU’RE SO CRAZY ALEXANDER!” Hyukjae busted out.
“Yah!” Alexander exclaimed with faking hurt. “You work for me! Don’t talk to me like that!”
“I will do whatever I want!” Hyukjae yelled to the phone. “I just agreed on being your executioner not your slave!”
“Fine!” Alexander hissed. “When are you going to recover?”
Hyukjae touched his forehead. “I think I will collapse any time soon so I want to go home…” He said serious. “It’s almost impossible for a human being to do what I’m doing after he got shot.”
“Then how many days?” Alexander asked.
“If I’m lucky, I will be able to walk slowly in a month.” Hyukjae said biting his lower lip.
“And you will be able to do what I want you to?” Alexander asked curious.
Hyukjae sighed. “You and I know that is actually really easy to kill someone.” He said looking pass the car window. “So yes…”
“Great!” Alexander exclaimed. “So how are you?” He asked as if it were the most normal thing to ask in that situation.
“Why are you interested in how am I?” Hyukjae asked with annoyance in his voice.
“Just because…” Alexander said and Hyukjae frowned.
“I have a high fever, my blood pressure is low, I get dizzy with every movement I make, and I might faint any time soon. Happy now?” Hyukjae asked sarcastically.
“Not really…” Alexander said. “I’ll send you your bodyguards.”
“I don’t need them.” Hyukjae said flatly.
“I don’t care.” Alexander said.
Hyukjae annoyance grew. “Just leave me alone for a month!” He demanded.
“I don’t think so.” Alexander said and Hyukjae could swear he was smirking.
“Aish!” Hyukjae exclaimed and closed the phone, turning it off.
He felt dizzy, the pain was slowly making his way to his body and he knew he would no longer stand being awake.
“We’re here.” The driver announced.
Hyukjae looked out before his heart started beating fiercely; the house was exactly as he remembered it to be, except that the feeling was different for him; memories and horrible images passed through his mind, everything started there, his living hell started just in that place.
I’m home.
“The distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion.”
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“What?!” Kyuhyun yelled to the nurse. “Where did he go?!” He asked frustrated once again.
“He just gave us some orders, he said he had to go home and rest.” The nurse answered shyly.
“But he’s injured! How could you let him go that way?!” Kyuhyun snapped. He was damn mad because of the situation, and not being able to see Hyukjae was even worst.
“He said he would treat himself at home.” The nursed excused herself. “He’s an excellent doctor and he always treats himself.” The nurse said as in her defense.
“What?” Kyuhyun frowned lightly. “Does he get injured often?”
The nurse sighed. “Not really…” She said while checking on Kyuhyun’s wound. “You must be careful sir, the wounds are way too fresh and they’re opening again, the pain is not there as much as it could be, but it has been just hours since you got shot and I’m afraid you will get some major consequences.” The nurse said concerned.
And it was true, Kyuhyun was shot just hours ago and it was supposed for him to stay in the bed until he recovers, he was supposed to sleep almost three days in a raw, the fact that he’s still super strong shouldn’t be n excuse to not take care of himself.
“Then why does he need to treat himself?” Kyuhyun asked ignoring the nurse.
The nurse sighed again. “Doctor Kim will kill me for sure…” She mumbled.
“Why?” Kyuhyun asked frowning.
The nurse turned to see Kyuhyun at the face. “He told me and all the people in here to take special care of you so your wounds would heal fast, but you’re not cooperating sir.” She said almost in a plea.
“He said so?” Kyuhyun asked opening his eyes wide and happiness running through his system.
“I’m impressed you actually are awake since people who get shot usually sleep for three or four days…” The nursed mumbled frowning in concentration. “And you have fainted like almost five times in the time being, don’t overwork your body.”
“Anyways…” Kyuhyun said snapping back to his own topic. “Is he sick?” He asked directly and he saw the nurse getting nervous.
The nurse gulped. “That’s not something I should talk about.” She said looking away from Kyuhyun’s death glare.
Kyuhyun had no other choice; he sighed. “If you don’t tell me I will make you lose your job.” He threatened serious.
The nurse smiled and Kyuhyun frowned. “Doctor Kim said you would say something like that.” She said. “He told us not to worry since he wouldn’t let anything wrong happen.”
He knows us too well. Kyuhyun’s mind made fun of him.
He’s determined on not letting me know what’s wrong. Kyuhyun frowned
Then I must suppose it’s something really bad.
“Call him and let me talk to him.” Kyuhyun ordered frowning.
“I’m sorry.” The nurse said apologetic. “But if you would like to know more about his health, then you should try calling his doctor in France.” She said and went out, not knowing if regretting telling that to Kyuhyun.
“Minho!” Kyuhyun yelled in realization; only to whine when he felt the sharp pain in his body.
Kyuhyun took out his cell phone and when he was about to get Minho’s number he could no longer see the numbers, his sight was blurry and his hands didn’t seem to obey his orders. He saw the blurry image of the nurse coming in. “What’s wrong?” Kyuhyun asked trying to focus his sight and taking both of his hands to his head as if it would get better that way.
“Doctor Kim instructed me to keep you resting.” The nurse said while preparing the hospital bed.
“You drugged me?!” Kyuhyun yelled annoyed and his world seemed to not stop moving.
“I just follow orders.” The nurse said and Kyuhyun saw then a big guy coming in and carrying him bridal style carefully.
Kyuhyun felt weak and he couldn’t even struggle against the huge guy, he just didn’t protest and he couldn’t say anything when he was placed in the bed. The nurse prepared him with serum and changed his bandages once again since the wound bleed again. “I will make sure you won’t do this again…” Kyuhyun said weakly and with his eyes closed already.
“Then someone else will do it anyway.” The nurse said checking if everything was ready. “Sweet dreams.” She said and smiled.
Even when Kyuhyun didn’t want to, he was forced by his own body to sleep deeply. And even when he was against sleeping, he couldn’t help but smile weakly remembering Hyukjae’s words.
I love you too Kyu.
He then went into a deep sleep, he slept with Hyukjae’s smile in his face and he felt happy just because of that.
I love you Hyukkie.
“If we open a quarrel between the past and the present, we shall find that we have lost the future.”
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A/N: Updateeeee~~~~
I know I’m super late and I’m becoming rather lazy~~
But college is kinda hard and doesn’t allow me to write as much as I wish to…
*pouts*
Sooo~~~
Keke
I know most of you hated me last chapter~~
(I know it because everybody threatened me with FLYING KICKS! (Noe?), and so on…
So don’t worry~~~ I was just making it a little harder…
I actually kept on going with my initial plan in this story~~
I really hope you like it so far!
5,532 words this time… ^^’
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Date: 2011-08-17 02:06 am (UTC)Enjoy this!
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